Proverbs 31:10-31: Quiet Grief

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Quiet Grief

Before my grandmother passed away, I had visions of what my reaction and life would be like. Thankfully they have not come to fruition. I pictured myself so grief stricken that I couldn't function. I pictured feeling like my insides were being ripped apart and that my world would be so empty. Now that I am on the other side of this I think back to those thoughts and wonder why I'm not feeling more like that. Of course, I have my moments and always will. My heart aches daily. The practical matter is I have these two beautiful children and a loving, adoring husband that require something more than a shell of a person in their daily lives. But I think it goes deeper than that and it goes back to the example that my grandmother lived in her life everyday. She was such a positive person although she endured many heartaches throughout her life, too many to recount now. But she always brought such light and joy to others and she wanted us to be happy and live life to the fullest. Also, my grandmother was so strong and she gave me such a strong sense of self that I know I can get through this. I thank God that He has filled my heart with her spirit and is letting me experience this quiet grief.

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Proverbs 31:10-31 (GWT)

10 “Who can find a wife with a strong character? She is worth far more than jewels.11 Her husband trusts her with all his heart, and he does not lack anything good. 12 She helps him and never harms him all the days of her life. 13 “She seeks out wool and linen with care and works with willing hands. 14 She is like merchant ships. She brings her food from far away. 15 She wakes up while it is still dark and gives food to her family and portions of food to her female slaves. 16 “She picks out a field and buys it. She plants a vineyard from the profits she has earned. 17 She puts on strength like a belt and goes to work with energy. 18 She sees that she is making a good profit. Her lamp burns late at night. 19 “She puts her hands on the distaff, and her fingers hold a spindle. 20 She opens her hands to oppressed people and stretches them out to needy people. 21 She does not fear for her family when it snows because her whole family has a double layer of clothing. 22 She makes quilts for herself. Her clothes are made of linen and purple cloth. 23 “Her husband is known at the city gates when he sits with the leaders of the land. 24 “She makes linen garments and sells them and delivers belts to the merchants. 25 She dresses with strength and nobility, and she smiles at the future. 26 “She speaks with wisdom, and on her tongue there is tender instruction. 27 She keeps a close eye on the conduct of her family, and she does not eat the bread of idleness. 28 Her children and her husband stand up and bless her. In addition, he sings her praises, by saying, 29 ‘Many women have done noble work, but you have surpassed them all!’ 30 “Charm is deceptive, and beauty evaporates, but a woman who has the fear of the Lord should be praised. 31 Reward her for what she has done, and let her achievements praise her at the city gates.”